The Antelligent Journal

6/14/26 1. Somber, silly sequoia singer; stuck locking eyes with a sparrow. 2. Broken down by the beaver's bridge; grazing the winter's meadow. 3. Why, when I do my best, I'm taken back by the flytrap? 4. Ears crystallizing over; a mind filled and muffled with chatter. 5. No luck by sunup; down in the muck, this tired fawn shivers. 6. Why bother taking cover? Rushing pines down the mountainside. 7. Busy Buck, fire in the alley, flips a coin and it falls in the gutter. 8. Seemed easy to keep above water, 'till I broke the bottle, and the river swept me under.

I let you be, because you are my lost legato dream, the brightest star I've ever seen, the better half of me. A lighthouse. A buoy brought you safe to shore.

Will make a wish come true Rainy days that don't leave a bloom. Tired, cold, restless hearts muffled behind talks that end the loneliness found in the evening's cold glimmering beam. What feels like the moon's longer cycle ends with the new moon forgotten. Cold fueling yelling. Don't move. Don't feel. Don't listen. Don't look.

Crosseyed Darker the hour, the lighter the step, Traversing the mud, made for you. Wonder why, still not sure. Suede in the rain wore nice the next day. Strange as she was –– A pleasant ray of gray. Always found ways to hold on. The full moon lies,  raises your fears,  rises the tide,  ends with the new moon forgotten. Crosseyed, fueling yelling–– a finale worth forgetting,  Don't move. Don't feel. Don't listen. Don't look. Wonder why? still not sure.

April 20, 2026 Psychological warfare lends something like a scripture. If every reason our brain gives us takes at least 90 seconds to shut off, the catalyst responsible for our awareness—we create calm. Shutting off is just as easy as turning on; the challenging part is the middle. The place we choose to stay is the maintenance place. Although beneficial to be within control of our awareness, it also is detrimental to productivity. To stagnate in this place for the purpose of the outcome, you just won't reach it the way you hope, and the settle-down phase is only given, typically, after all efforts are extinguished and catastrophe forces us to reset. The dangerous cycle that further reinforces our need to control our awareness, validated by our most recently lived catastrophe, also referred to as fight-or-flight mode, I like to think of more like a maintenance schedule. The reason for this shift in perspective is that it removes the experience as being solely reactionary and bring...